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Everyday Feels, Wedding

Wedding Bells for Real

I’m back from my hiatus.

The time has ticked past the flurry of long, long days. Now, we’ve arrived at a point in time where I’m happy to announce (again) that our wedding is on for next year in 2018. The venue has been booked and the deposits have been made, so God willing, things will go smoothly this time.

Over the course of our engagement, I know we may have gained much more fans as a couple, mostly taking form in distant, non-immediate family members. I have personally received and felt welcoming embraces and smiles of joy from his side of the family whom I’ve not known previously. I’m more than glad that people even as prime as his grandaunts warmly embrace me into their arms, into their families with open hearts. His aunts feel comfortable chatting with me even about the most random of things. Well, not forgetting his cousins, who weren’t all that hard to get along with because it so happens, we were all born and streamed into the same radio frequency. Most importantly, it’s an even greater pleasure to feel that people accept me for who I am, and not who they want me to be. Because all my life, the people (or person) closest to me, who was supposed to nurture me and guide me from childhood to adulthood has been trying to change/manipulate every part of me to his preference. He has even tried to sabotage my relationship. I can’t even continue sharing about the things he has done. Let God only hold the bitter and terrible truths for me.

But alas, we both survived hardships and big fat lemons that were tossed our way. We held our fort bravely, and here we are today counting down to our wedding.

Amongst the joyous news here, I know there’s a hint of bitterness lurking behind these strings of words. This is mostly my realising that I don’t need to remain prisoned by the opinions of someone (or people) who don’t have my best interests at heart, who have other deeper concerns that enveloped only their own interests at the expense of others. Even if this other person is a close and immediate family member.

I don’t need more words to point you in the direction of the person I’m referring to. It’s beyond obvious.

In all this bitterness, and bleakness, I know one day the skies will clear its grey and pave a way for blue. We don’t have to be gloomy, just because we don’t get what we want. Or need. Although I’m still bitter over that person cancelling our wedding that was meant to happen July last year, I do feel that there had been so may instances and enlightening reasons for why things were delayed. For the better. 

It’s okay that we had to start a new life together almost a year later. But surely, without this extra delayed year, we wouldn’t feel like all the people who knew us, care for us and love us would be completely behind us celebrating our union like its their own. Without this extra time gap, we wouldn’t have won the hearts of the people we thought didn’t really matter. And in this time, we have received more love and support than we ever expected. It warms my heart how people have been showing so much excitement, keen interest and eagerness to attend our wedding next year. It really does.

In all this, life has reminded me yet again that things happen for a reason. There’s a hikmah behind every occurrence that is seemingly pessimistic, or negative. Allah never forgets us.

The past weekend was a glimpse of how joyous and exciting our wedding event would be like next year, with the people we call family so eager to honour our celebration with their presence, prayers and love. That’s all that matters. Blessings are what actually counts towards happiness in our lives. 

Fashion Fixations, Mood

Cop that Copper

Modest Summer of 2017 #3


Snagged a gorgeous copper coloured blouse but you don’t want to look like a mom? Pair it with plain black jeans and white sneakers for a youthful vibe, or with booties for an insta-worthy fashionista shot. Pick out any hijab similar to the colours in the silk scarf in this set, and grab your favourite nude or black bag. Pull the look together with a metallic copper tone lip for that easy cool girl look!

TIBI red satin top
380 SGD – shop.harpersbazaar.com

Skinny ankle jeans
28 SGD – makemechic.com

JustFab platform heel bootie
55 SGD – justfab.com

MICHAEL Michael Kors purse shoulder bag
510 SGD – stylebop.com

Marc by Marc Jacobs analogue watch
270 SGD – neimanmarcus.com

Valentino scarve
320 SGD – julian-fashion.com

Mineral eye makeup
26 SGD – etsy.com

Lip makeup
8.30 SGD – colourpop.com

Fashion Fixations, Mood

My Favourite Red Bag

Modest Summer of 2017 #2


Feel like dusting off that red satchel you’ve had in your closet for months? Have a similar bow-sleeved top you want to show off to your girlfriends? Pair the blouse with indigo jeans and nude pink heels for a touch of elegance or a pair of pastel pink sneakers for a comfortable shopping day out. Snatch up any rose gold accessories, a scarf that sports any of the shades of pink/mauve in this set and you’re good to go!

River Island skinny jeans
69 SGD – riverisland.com

Adidas ortholite shoes
140 SGD – shopakira.com

Kate Spade satchel handbag
260 SGD – gilt.com

Michael Kors chronograph watch
410 SGD – forzieri.com

Bally silk scarve
410 SGD – bally.com

False eyelash
11 SGD – prettylittlething.com

Lime crime lipstick
28 SGD – dollskill.com

Mac cosmetic
55 SGD – gilt.com
Fashion Fixations, Mood
Modest Summer of 2017 #1


Fancy yourself a rich yellow scarf? Pair it with a quirky white top, black skinnies and nude heels. Sling on a matching yellow crossbody or a black satchel to tie this outfit together. Stack some gold and black bangles for that Indian summer feels. Complete the look with vibrant pink lips and pastel nails!

Ruffle sleeve top
83 SGD – nordstromrack.com

Schutz beige shoes
120 SGD – c21stores.com

Gucci top handle handbag
2,335 SGD – snobswap.com

Kate Spade leather crossbody
190 SGD – gilt.com

Amrita Singh bracelet
28 SGD – c21stores.com

FOSSIL white jewelry
97 SGD – c21stores.com

Versace pure silk scarve
175 SGD – gilt.com

33 SGD – stilacosmetics.com

Lime Crime lipstick
28 SGD – dollskill.com

Deborah Lippmann nail polish
26 SGD – revolve.com

Rich, Rich Yellow

Everyday Feels

Struggling to Explain A Struggle

In this world, between those that you know and those that you follow, there still lives amongst us people who struggle to discern between trying to understand someone else’s circumstantial life and being sensitive or respectful even when you can’t understand a smidge of it. I think it’s actually honesty that maintains the necessary balance in a conversation that involves a life struggle. It’s much easier if someone truthfully admits that they don’t and can never understand how you feel and what you have gone through; that is possibly one of the most respectful actions, and if you’re having a deep conversation so much so that someone is opening up their vulnerabilities to you, you owe it to them to be honest and sincere in trying to help them, even if that just means you sit there and listen for a while.

But for most people, they would rather pretend to understand and claim to be that ‘been-there-done-there bitch’ when they’re actually just disagreeing with how you feel, judging your life and criticising your thoughts when they have not once been in your shoes. They think that they could fool those who are opening up to them; yes you may but you can’t fool them all the time. For us to be in a situation where we feel so trapped, bleak and helpless, wouldn’t you think we would have done everything in our power to change our fates and our circumstances? Haven’t you heard that “desperate times call for desperate measures”? You didn’t think of that, did you? That’s because you weren’t desperate enough to want to change your circumstances, simply because you weren’t even trapped in those circumstances, ever.

Please don’t pretend to be that person who has successfully eased out of that struggle when you can hardly understand the struggle or the significance of it to someone’s emotional and mental health to begin with, much less give generic comments and solutions that even a desperate person would see it as illogical. You have your personal struggles, and it’s fabulous that you were lucky enough to be able to pull through out of your many struggles in one piece, mind and body intact. But for some people, they dream of it every day, believing it that they can and yet, they’re still waiting on that day or that opportunity to pluck themselves out of the situation. Everyone knows how difficult reality is, even the most insane and unstable minds know that escapism is an alternative to reality. Escaping something that brings you discomfort and depression is surely the top solution. Of course, everyone would have thought of escaping their struggles in a split second, if they could. We don’t need another voice to add on to the millions of voices in our heads telling us to run the fuck out of this place and this terribly upsetting situation right this minute.

If you can’t be the problem-solver, it’s okay, because we appreciate you just being the sunshine on our cloudy day instead of pretending like you can be the problem-solver.

Everyday Feels

Clearly, I’m Upset with Sephora (SG)

Essentially, what I have composed in my email to our local Sephora team will briefly (or in detail) explain my disappointment in their purchasing choices, or so I believe. Read ahead and enlighten yourselves, let me know if you feel my pain T.T


Dear Sephora SG,

I would like to bring to your attention that there is a rather disappointing/limited shade range for a particular product that I believe, is one of the totally necessary cult beauty products and has always been a popular favourite amongst many Youtube makeup gurus and makeup users alike – ‘NYX HD Photogenic Concealer Wand’.

Here is a photo of the product for your convenient reference:


I was recommended to purchase this by friends and family, backed by its popularity amongst Youtube users and reviewers as it is an affordable and great option. Much to my dismay, the Sephora outlet that I visited at Suntec City Mall yesterday only brings about 4 shades, the lightest being either the ‘Fair’ or ‘Light’ shade, which is meant for people with beige skin. According to your online store, this particular product is only available in 4 shades (Medium, Light, Glow, Beige) out of the pretty impressive 23 shades (inclusive of the 3 colour-correcting shades) that NYX manufactures.

I’m a really fair Malay-Chinese woman (and I use the lightest shade ‘Fair Sand’ for the Tarte Amazonian Clay Foundation). I’m sure many Singaporeans, mostly dominated by Chinese who may have equally fair or even fairer skin tones than I, would be rather disappointed at the limited shade range for this seemingly amazing product. It would be great if Sephora can bring in the lighter shades (Alabaster, Porcelain, Fair, Light, Nude Beige etc) so that other Singaporeans with fair, light, beige and medium complexions can enjoy this wonderful product too.

In addition, if you haven’t noticed, we have quite a sizeable community of dark-skinned people too (although they may be minorities). It would be really nice if Sephora can also bring in the many darker shades (an impressive 9 to be exact) to suit the medium tanned, olive and dark skinned individuals. I believe the hype of the ‘Amazing Cosmetics’ concealer is as real as that of NYX products, and as we all know, NYX’s affordable and wonderful products have taken the (beauty) world by storm. It would only be fair if Sephora brings in all 23 shades of the ‘NYX HD Photogenic Concealer Wand’ since Sephora is able to supply such a variety of shades of the ‘Amazing Cosmetics’ concealer (this being the high end product).

I have noticed that generally, both the drugstores and Sephora have very few brands that bring in a wide range of shades for concealers. I understand that many of these brands that you bring in such as Tarte, Stila, Urban Decay etc., do not make/manufacture a large range of (concealer) shades to suit almost every skin tone out there. That said, there is a mere handful of brands that do make concealers with a great variety of shades, or at least a decent variety, and this includes NYX’s ‘HD Photogenic Concealer Wand’. The comparable Maybelline Fit Me concealer (which is a dupe for the amazing but pricey ‘NARS Radiant Creamy Concealer’) is already unavailable in Singapore thus it would definitely outdo the very limited options in the drugstores (Watsons, Guardian) and the other concealer brands in Sephora that only have a few generic shades.

In essence, I really hope that Sephora’s purchasing team would really consider bringing in more shades for products and brands that do make a variety of shades to suit every skin tone in our multi-cultural/multi-ethnic society because, believe it or not, not every Chinese, Malay, Indian, Filipino, Caucasian, Eurasian and every other ethnicity residing in Singapore is of the beige/medium skin tone.

I sure am counting my lucky stars that other Sephora outlets somehow brings in the complete range of NYX’s ‘HD Photogenic Concealer Wand’.

Thank you for your kind attention.

Yours truly,